I've tried three times to post something about the Pope, and I've failed each time. I have blogger's block. So many others are doing such a good job of putting this man's life into words, and all I've been able to do is read them and nod.
But if I can't seem to say anything yet about Pope John Paul's life, I do have a few thoughts about his death.
And one of the first things that occurs to me is that his death itself was a great gift, just as his life was. Catholics have always talked about the gift of a "happy death", and I think this was just such a thing.
The Pope died at home, with the Sacraments, with people who loved him. Thousands of people who loved him, in fact, gathered in the square outside his window, and millions of people who loved him, gathered around his window on their TV sets everywhere in the world.
He knew he was dying; he had one last chance to prepare himself - though really his whole life was preparation for the moment when he would meet God, face to face - and to say good-bye, just as we did.
When his last moment came, it was on a First Saturday, a day of special devotion to Mary that was revealed to the children at Fatima.
The Pope died late in the evening on Saturday, which means that he also died on the vigil of Mercy Sunday.
What a very personal gift that was, from God to him! John Paul himself instituted the Feast of Divine Mercy in 2001, based on the visions of a Polish nun who he canonized in 2000. He has been called "The Mercy Pope".
Is it any surprise that God called him home on this feast? (Update: Or that He waited until after the Pope had been able to hear the Mass of the Feast of Divine Mercy?)
For us Catholics, the gift was that God gave us three days to prepare for John Paul's death. We had three days to pray for him, to be with him in spirit, to support him and ask God to be with him in his last hours.
And for the world: he showed all of us, one last time, that life is precious, and that the end of life is properly in God's hands and his hands alone.
He demonstrated that enduring great suffering has great meaning, when it's offered up and united with Christ's suffering.
He showed us that dignity does not reside in what we are able to do, but simply in who we are: children of God.
UPDATE: Changed "good death" to "happy death", which is the correct term. I knew that, really, and am embarrassed that I used the wrong word when posting. Chalk it up to the stress of blogger's block!
"Good death" was exactly the wrong term, since "euthanasia" translates loosely into that phrase -- which it isn't, of course. You would think the fact that the Pope actually said, "I am happy, you be it, too" would have clued me in!
UPDATE 2: I see I'm getting referrals from the Pro-Life Blogs aggregator on Terri Schiavo. The sad truth is that Terri Schiavo didn't have a "Happy Death"; she was intentionally starved to death, she was denied the Sacraments other than one last time on Easter, I believe, and those who loved her weren't allowed to be with her when she took her last breath.
I believe that her death was more like a martyr's death; she was a victim of the Culture of Death, a living symbol of all the unwanted, inconvenient lives that have been ended in this country since Roe v. Wade.
God will make something good come of her death. The devil may think he's won something here, but in fact this will be yet another element of his decisive defeat.
We should now begin praying for Michael Schiavo, for a conversion of heart.